tonight these headphones will deliver the words that i cant say...

so i suck at updating? yeah sorry but oh well. so a lot has happened since the last update. i quit home depot, because well it was just too damn boring. but its ok i got another job at canyon springs golf club as a bartender. and well, i got a girlfriend. the strait girl i was talking about in my last post finally came around and we kinda dated for awhile and made it official a few days ago. im really happy. and i really hope this works out. as for my ex, well things are going as well as they can i guess. im still not over her but the distance was just too much. 22 hours away is so far and she is in college and it just not the right time. and we are trying to be friends, but its hard. but yeah thats about all i feel like writing right now. ill try to post more often i promise. :)

yeah i havent updated in a long time, its mainly because i just havent felt like sitting and writing about all the shit going on. lets just say my ex gf who i planned to move near is being a complete bitch to me. and doesnt even care. and i cant decide whether or not to move. it sucks. and well i like a strait girl lol so that kind of sucks too. but anyway home depot is goin alright its not as boring as i thought it would be but yeah im thinkin about gettin my tongue pierced tomorrow. if i can get the money lol. but i work saturday so id be screwed if it was swollen. but right now i kind of want to just say fuck it ya know. why not go get my tongue pierced im 18, i need to be impulsive. well im gonna go watch the oc and maybe go to the gym. byeeeee

i got back from south padre today. i missed home so much, even though the beach was amazing. i went monday with my mom and my uncles gf and as soon as we got to south padre we went to the beach and met my other aunt and her daughter and her daughters family, we didnt stay very long and i didnt have my boogie board or anything so it got kinda boring quickly. tuesday was better we got to the beach at like 11 and stayed until 6, i hung out with my cousin and his boyfriend the whole time i never realized how fun the ocean can be. but i havent been there since i was 3 so i guess thats why. so wedesday was just another day at the beach again and thursday was the best day, i went jetskiing with some of my family which was so cool. i saw this huge turtle in the water and almost hit it. oops. then we went and rode the banana boat and the stupid driver tips the whole damn boat over. im lucky i didnt get eaten by a shark. but anyway now im back home and i cant move from the damn sunburn all over me. but oh well. i have another interview at home depot at 5 today so wish me luck. :)

so i think i ALMOST have a job. i have an interview at home depot tomorrow..WOO HOO lol yay for the orange apron. i bartended a graduation party last night it was pretty awesome i sat there and opened beer bottles for 5 hours and played quarters with the graduates cousins, and got paid 100 dollars for it. im goin to south padre tomorrow im so excited i actually get to go to a good beach instead of rockport which shouldnt be called a beach at all. the only thing i really want to make sure i do before i leave is jetski. ive never done that and it looks so fun. but i gotta get finished packin so ill see yall in about a week.

ok so i havent written in like 2 years. i never was any good at these things. and i really dont feel like updating now but i promise i will tomorrow. so ill just leave a poem on here that reminds me of her :)



Saturn's Rings

I dreamed we danced on Saturn's rights last night
Our arms tightly around each other
And our bodies close
While the stars fell one by one around us
Creating beautiful rainbows of stardust
Jupiter and its 16 moons hid the sun from us
Casting a shadow that stretched across the universe
And next to us Neptune glided by
Majestically blue Neptune
With its tiny rings made of diamonds and pearls
The comets sang of our love
As bards would sing of heroes
We danced alone in this heaven of ours
To the sweet sound of the stars and comets drifting by
And your warmth kept the chill away
In this vast empty stretch of space
Where gods come to die
And heroes gain their immortality
Your soft breath in my ear
Was the only thing I could hear
The only thing I wanted to hear
And your soft lips on my neck
Along with the gentle raising and falling of your chest
In this timeless moment with you
Dancing on Saturn's rings

I dreamed we danced on Saturn's rings last night
Her moons passing by every now and then
The Milky Way winding itself a path
Across the horizon of space
Everything was peacefully held in place
By nothing but emptiness
But me, I felt whole and complete
With your body pressed so close to mine
I wanted to melt into you
Be absorbed by you
Think your thoughts
And never be apart from you again
But I remained content to just hold you
And be held by you
Just as the planets circle endlessly around the sun
Never straying from the path
We never uttered a word in this dream
The singing comets, with their glowing tails
Said everything for us
And the stars continued to fall stardust rainbows
And Jupiter continued to watch us
Ever present, ever still
And Neptune glided by again
In this timeless moment with you
Dancing on Saturn's rings